Sunday, November 11, 2007 ; 6:27 PM {♥}
best friend is wad u always say we are.
but i really doubt if you really treated me as your best friend.
i have known you since sec 1.
and now we're already in sec 5.
5 years gone in a flash.
firstly, the three of us,namely you, miss J and me always mix together.
loiter around after sch.
and when its cca day, its always either you or me release first. then miss J will release.
and if you release first, you always come outside library wait for me to release.
and you just wanted me to pei you wait for miss J.
and we aren't even going the same way either.
i really see no point in waiting so long.
like when i realeased at 5 plus, i had to wait with you all the way to 6 plus.
and i often got scolded in the past by my parents for going home so late.
and i still remember that you two always know that when i got alot of money that i saved,
you will always ask me planja this,planja that.
its always like this.
even when we go out, and you got no money, its always you say, ' siyin pay for this and that '
WTF!
you think i freaking rich ma?
and my family isn't any richer than your lor.
and whenever you got other people to accompany you,
you'll just dump me aside.
i guess you treat me as though i never existed.
first was miss J, next was miss M and now, i guess is miss H.
i will exclude miss H first.
you are so much closer to them.
and when you have them, you wouldn't need me.
lets take the most recent one.
we were going to the salon for hair colouring.
and miss M had school until 3pm.
and my appointment with the salon was at 1pm.
and i had to go through so much trouble to talk to my mum too.
and i even quarreled with her because of this stupid bloody thing of yours.
well, forget about me and my mummy quarreled.
you said you wanted to wait for her then you come.
and ended up, she had project work and couldn't come with you.
so, you had to come alone and you're like so late for the appointment.
and ended up, i guess my highlight is better than urs.
shawn has done it better than you whoever~
and he's so much more friendlier than your dunno wad name.
and my highlight is more than yours.
cos everyone treated us like VIP when we first ended the salon.
cos we're like their first customer.
and yours isn't.
whatever~
and wads more, you always have dental appointment.
and you will ask someone to go with you.
and when that someone cannot make it,
or back out at the last min,
you just dragged me along.
acutally, how many times have i actually followed you go.
i guess its countless.
and i feel like a fool being made use of.
and whenever you really really got nobody to pei you go,
then you will ask me.
and when they're free, you'll just dump me aside, past caring me.
its always like this.
whatever.
i guess you'll never see this,
and i guess some kpo people will go and tell you.
i really guess so.
those who noe me well enough will noe who la.
but really, please dun tell.
and i guess no one will even listen to me.
cos she's way so much better than me rights?
haiis.
whatever. if you really want to tell,
go ahead, just that i will take it that i never had a friend like you.
and i'll never want a friend who will backstab me,
and tell her things.
all i can say is, i guess I'M JUST A FOOL BEING MADE USE OF!
and how i really wish i can turn time back.
to let us be not so close.
so that i wouldn't be so hurt now.
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and! http://mlbpowerlah.blogspot.com/ really changed my mood! i really love them! (:
& words that could change everything are left unspoken. {♥}
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